Today I don’t have it all together. I didn’t yesterday and I won’t tomorrow. Who says we have to have it all together? No really, who started that unrealistic expectation that clouds our mind and our potential on a daily basis? It’s a lie. A deceitful seed that was planted at some point years ago within ourselves that quite frankly, I’m over. There’s a beautiful balance between drive to be our best and contentment with where we are in life. And just like life, there is no end destination to this perfect state of balance, rather an ebb and flow of successful days, grace-filled days, and bare-minimum days; and in my opinion all are enough and so are we.
Not Having It All Together
If you’ve been following LtL for a while now you probably remember some of my highs and lows over the years, both personally and professionally (you can read more HERE, HERE, and HERE). Those posts are clear reminders that I don’t have it all together. In fact,I find myself in a totally new season of life recently. One that continues to push me, challenged me, and highlight my strengths AND weaknesses all in the same breath. And y’all, I’m so thankful for it.
Last week I found myself struck with anxiety, and you know what the premise was – not being enough; not ‘having it all together.’ I felt like I was on a hamster wheel unable to keep up with the daily needs and expectations of life. If you know me, you know time management is not a strength of mine. Some days I’ve planned and prepped and I’m ready for the tasks laid before me. Other days I miss the mark completely and it just makes me feel like sh*t. (Sorry mom) 🙂 It’s a genuine struggle (hashtag ADD) that I have to work on daily. I try not to beat myself up over it and see tomorrow as a new day to do better, but unfortunately that isn’t always the case. Those thoughts do get the best of me. But I’m learning as I go. Today I didn’t have it all together and neither should you.
After a few days of feeling exhausted from never meeting my own expectations I stopped and prayed. I realized days like those have a greater purpose than to just bring me down or distract from being my best self. They are moments of humbling ourselves before God and remembering that it’s not all up to us. They are moments of learning to be present in our every waking moment and our innate need in our Heavenly Father. I believe our moments of weaknesses are opportunities to lean into Him. To be reminded of our inability to control life or have it all together. At the end of the day, we are walking in faith, not by sight. (2 Cor 5:7) Having faith in knowing He has our very best interests at heart, always. Period. Even He knows today I don’t have it all together, and I’m better for it.
Moral of the story
I am enough. You are enough. We all have our struggles, weaknesses, and bad days but they do not define us. Just let it be a moment and nothing more or less. Learn something from it and when you feel wound up tightly with the burdens of anxiety, lean into your faith knowing you are loved and taken care of.
If you made it this far into reading, thanks for stickin’ with me. 🙂
Happy Tuesday friends.
Lemons to Love,